Sean 'Diddy' Combs opened up for the first time on Wednesday about his father, who was killed when he was just an infant.
A
known associate of convicted drug dealer Frank Lucas, Melvin Combs was
shot dead while sitting in his car in New York City at the age of 33 -
something the hip-hop mogul made the decision not to publicly talk about
until now.
'My father
was killed when I was 3 yrs old. we never got to share the moments that
made me a man today..but he lives in my spirit..now I'm ready to tell
the story YOUTUBE.COM/REVOLTTV #MelvinsSon,' Diddy posted on Twitter,
with a link to his new music television project, Revolt TV.
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'I have his hustler's mentality, his hustler's
spirit': Sean 'Diddy' Combs opened up for the first time on Wednesday
about his late father, Melvin, who was killed when he was just three
years old, as he launched new music TV network Revolt
In the intimate video
titled 'Confessions', the 43-year-old sits down in his New York City
apartment at 5.47am to talk about the father he barely knew yet still
managed to shape him.
'Being that my father was killed when I was three years old, I don't have a lot of memories of my father,' he begins.
'They
say you can't miss something you never had, but that's only a little
ways right. There's definitely been times as I've gotten older that I've
missed my father - his presence - not being here... There's things that
you would ask your father. There's also things that you would celebrate
with him that would make him proud.'
Referring
to Melvin as a 'hustler', the successful entrepreneur and businessman
cites his father's shortcomings as the inspiration to really make
something of his own life.
Bringing back memories: The hip-hop mogul looked
lost in thought as he headed out for an early meal in Beverly Hills
that same day, after revealing that his father was 'gonna be on my mind a
lot today'
Rolling with the homies: The star was
accompanied by girlfriend Casandra 'Cassie' Ventura and a male pal at
Gyu-Kaku Japanese BBQ, before his appearance on Jimmy Kimmel Live! later
that night
'My father was a
hustler. He was a drug dealer and he was a hustler, so I learned early
in life that there's only two ways out of that dead-end jail. It made me
work even harder.
'Sometimes you can't just answer why things happen, but I definitely think the route that I went on
- staying out of the streets and hitting my books and trying to be somebody - I think he played a role in that,' he says.
'I have his hustler's mentality, his hustler's spirit, his drive, his determination, his swag.'
The
clip concludes with a rather poignant statement: 'He's gonna be on my
mind a lot today. My father's name was Melvin Combs and I'm Melvin's
son, Sean Combs.'
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Designer duds: The star sported a denim jacket
with black leather sleeves over his white Revolt T-shirt, baggy jeans
and white high-top sneakers with gold detail as he left the eatery
A father himself, Diddy has
five children to three different women, all of whom he dotes on and
plays a significant role in their lives.
Earlier
in the day, the star shared a series of messages about his late father
as he encouraged fans to check out the intimate two-and-a-half-minute
video.
'I've
never spoken openly about my father ..but launching @Revolttv moved me
to share and let ppl kno the truth (sic),' he started, before adding,
'For every young person who lost their Father or grew up without parents
know you can still conquer the WORLD!!
'My father was killed when I was 3 yrs old...we didn't share a lot of moments but he's always lived in my spirit!!'
Dubbed
the first 'Multi-Platform TV Network', it is 'powered by Music, Driven
by Culture & Fueled by You!' - according to its Twitter account.
Feeling full? The father-of-five held his
stomach with a wince on his face after overindulging, while his lady
love walked on ahead with her beanie-clad head bowed, looking a little
disgruntled
Risqué! The 27-year-old songstress gave
onlookers an eyeful as her red and black patterned skirt, which had
slits up both legs, blew up to expose her toned pins
The rapper officially
launched the network he hopes to make 'the ESPN of music' on Monday,
with three days of live-streaming content via YouTube, before it begins
airing on Time Warner and some Comcast outlets.
'I
want to know, who is Taylor Swift? Why is Miley Cyrus twerking? Why did
Jay-Z and Justin Timberlake go on tour? Why did Kanye West call his
daughter "North"?' Entertainment Weekly reports him saying of the concept.
'The
industry of music is just as important, or more important, as the
industry of sports. Sports are covered in a serious manner and we want
to follow in those footsteps.'